Upset

So lonely here, no one around me..............I was feeling so lonely, wanted to talk to someone, i called my mom, i was talking so much, I felt like i syok sendiri :(

then cam online to find someone to chat, there was no one there to talk to me. everyone has gone back, feel lyke I am stranded here. haissshhhh......................

don't like this feeling. wish someone was here now to talk to me

Blowing Trumpet

This trumpet is always blowing non-stop without realizing that how irritated people will feel by hearing it. I know that this trumpet is proud, erm well very proud of itself, but this doesn't mean that it should blow till my ears start to bleed. Everyone is proud and happy over every thing that they do, even I am like that. But this doesn't mean that you should go around and praise yourself. People must recognize you by them self not so forcefully. Although I am tremendously irritated and pissed off, but then what can i do. I perceive that GOD loves me so much, and when he loves you so much, he tends to test your level of patience. So, this trumpet was sent by the god to make me to learn on how to cope with irritating people. Previously I will get so annoyed, but now a days, I just don't give em a damn. Life has to go on despite of all these people. This trumpet only can blow few of its greatest things ever, but then how does it beneficial to itself. Rather than blowing around your greatest achievements, start to think about the greatest mistakes and loss that who have incurred over life, it is more beneficial as it will teach you the core essence of what is life.

BEARING IS PAINFUL.

CANNOT
CANNOT
CANNOT
I DON'T WANT TO REPEAT THE SAME THING THAT I DID LAST TIME, IT WAS SO EMBARRASSING AND MADE ME GUILTY.
IT'S PEOPLE'S RIGHT , THEY CAN CHOOSE HOW TO BEHAVE AND HOW NOT TO. IT'S FOOLISH OF MYSELF TO WORRY BOUT THAT, IT'S MY OWN PROBLEM TO BRING MY SELF SO CLOSE TO THAT PERSON ASSUMING THAT "SHE IS MY BESTIE". BESTIES WILL STAY WITH YOU NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS AND HOW BAD ARE YOUR TIMES.

APPROXIMATELY, I HAVE 1 1/2 YEAR TO COMPLETE. AFTER THAT, I ASSUME THAT I'M NOT GOING TO MEET THAT PARTICULAR PERSON AND THE LAST DAY I'M GONNA CLEAR EVERYTHING, I'M NOT GONNA PICK A FIGHT, I WILL JUST ASK WHY WERE YOU SO MEAN TO ME. I JUST CAN'T SHARE ANYTHING WITH ANYONE. I FEEL SO HEAVY, ITS DOUBTFUL WHETHER I CAN BEAR ALL THESE. I PRAY TO GOD THAT I MUST BEAR. NO MATTER WHAT.  I MUST BEAR BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE ANYONE TO SHARE.

99 FACTS ABOUT GUYS

 99 FACTS ABOUT GUYS

1. Guys don’t actually look after good-looking girls. They prefer neat and presentable girls.

2. Guys hate flirts.

3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.

4. When a guy says he doesn’t understand you, it simply means you’re not thinking the way he is.

5. “Are you doing something?” or “Have you eaten already?” are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.

6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

7. When a guy really likes you, he’ll disregard all your bad characteristics.

8. Guys go crazy over a girl’s smile.

9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl’s attention.

10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.

11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.

12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can’t. And they sure have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking!

13. Guys cry!!!

14. Don’t provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.

15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.

16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.

17. When you touch a guy’s heart, there’s no turning back.

18. Giving a guy a hanging message like “You know what? Uh…never mind!” would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.

19. Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands.

20. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

21. When a guy makes a prolonged “umm” or makes any excuses when you’re asking him to do you a favor, he’s actually saying that he doesn’t like you and he can’t lay down the card for you.

22. When a girl says “no”, a guy hears it as “try again tomorrow.”

23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.

24. Guys hate nice boy!

25. Guys love their moms.

26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.

27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn’t mean that the guy likes her.

28. You can never understand him unless you listen to him.

29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.

30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.

31. Like Eve, girls are guys’ weaknesses.

32. Guys are very open about themselves.

33. Its good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don’t let him wait that long.

34. No guy is bad when he is courting

35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.

36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they’re not that much pretty.

37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don’t need to give advice.

39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

40. A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.

41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts.

42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.

43. Guys virtually brag about anything.

44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.

45. Guys think too much.

46. Guys’ fantasies are unlimited.

47. Girls’ height doesn’t really matter to a guy but her weight does!

48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!!

49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl.

50. It’s not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they’ve been together for 3 years or more.

51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.

52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he’s too-good-never-been-busted

, never been in love and hurt, he won’t be matured and grow up.

53. When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.

54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.

55. Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed pussycats with their girlfriends.

56. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he’s sweating. You’ll probably see that he is nervous.

57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.

58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he’s just actually saying, “Please come and listen to me”

59. Guys don’t really have final decisions.

60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.

61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.

62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.

63. Guys believe that there’s no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.

64. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

65. Guys don’t like girls who punch harder than they do.

66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.

67. A guy would waste his time over video games and basketball, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.

68. Guys love girls who can cook or bake.

69. Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!

70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

71. A guy’s friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage.

72. Don’t be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection.

73. Don’t be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you’ll be surprised.

74. Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys.

75. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.

76. Guys don’t comprehend the statement “Get lost” too well.

77. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.

78. When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.

79. Guys don’t care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.

80. Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them, they’ll realize they’re wrong.

81. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He’s just too stubborn to deal with it.

82. Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.

83. Guys’ weakest point is at the knee.

84. When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.

85. When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things.

86. When a guy looks at you, either he’s amazed of you or he’s criticizing you.

87. When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.

88. If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.

89. If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you’re with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.

90. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

91. You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!

92. If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.

93. When a guy says he can’t sleep if he doesn’t hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.

94. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.

95. Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.

96. Girls are allowed to touch boys’ things. Not their hair!

97. If a guy says you’re beautiful, that guy likes you.

98. Guys hate girls who overreact.

99. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

I quit being afraid when my first venture failed and the sky didn't fall down.

It's very painful, when you don't get what you want no matter how hard you struggle, but life does not end here. People may look down, give you fake hopes and run away from you, this does not mean you're totally useless, every success starts with pain and hardship, just that we don't have a crystal ball to forecast the day that we will obtain success. Life in this world is hard indeed, but the question is, what makes life hard? people around us? environment? perfections? high hopes? or we ourself?

The answer is - WE OUR SELF.....
YES, why should I bother what is the person next to me is doing? why my friends are treating me like this? how am I going to please others? and etc...
this is my life, and its the time to bother for myself....hoping high sometimes, ends up with tears, enjoying all month and last day tears vanishes all the happiness, what a life?
I should cherish myself saying, It's your hard work, feel happy for it unless you didn't work hard...
let the best friend run away from you after realizing that you're useless, but that's the time you're able to realize who is your friend.  Always struggling hard to get something, but when u don't get it did anyone come to you and say, don't worry you tried your best may be this is not the time? everyone accused you indirectly by saying why this happened? how can it be like this?


BECAUSE no one understand me better than me myself?
so now its time to appreciate and affiliate myself rather than letting down...
seeing the world with opened mind and bright way....this answers everyday is great, and there is always tomorrow and your life does not end here.
AS WHAT THE KING OF FLUTE, inspired:
it's important to focus on what you do and only on what you do, go all out and do your best for anything that you do, do not think that i must do this for others, do it well for urself without bothering the end result .



this is my life I'm going to follow your steps or bother what you do and what you get. BECAUSE i thought no matter what you will be with me, but it's not true, just one event and 15 minutes proved me what is the true meaning of best friend. It's not the time to worry about it. Let's do assignments and  presentations together  but not more than that because you know hurting yourself by staying with someone who fakes around with the name of best friend is the most best feeling that's going to kill you.


ITS THE TIME TO BE WITH PEOPLE WHO TEACHES YOU WHAT IS LIFE, NOT SOMEONE THAT MAKES YOU TO HATE YOUR LIFE..........................................................

hard to decide

samsung touch screen or NOKIA express.......hmmmmm  thinking for past one week, still unable to decide

its weird

everything started as a mere game......now its getting damn serious, OMg

...i was angry when i heard it...damn why should I get angry, that's the 1st question but my brain knows what am doing is not right my stupid....oops no, my beautiful heart does not understand.... if this is gonna extend then things gonna get far more difficult, how to invest in sumthing tht u noe u won't get? kasantra u are stupid indeed...