CANNOT
CANNOT
CANNOT
I DON'T WANT TO REPEAT THE SAME THING THAT I DID LAST TIME, IT WAS SO EMBARRASSING AND MADE ME GUILTY.
IT'S PEOPLE'S RIGHT , THEY CAN CHOOSE HOW TO BEHAVE AND HOW NOT TO. IT'S FOOLISH OF MYSELF TO WORRY BOUT THAT, IT'S MY OWN PROBLEM TO BRING MY SELF SO CLOSE TO THAT PERSON ASSUMING THAT "SHE IS MY BESTIE". BESTIES WILL STAY WITH YOU NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS AND HOW BAD ARE YOUR TIMES.
APPROXIMATELY, I HAVE 1 1/2 YEAR TO COMPLETE. AFTER THAT, I ASSUME THAT I'M NOT GOING TO MEET THAT PARTICULAR PERSON AND THE LAST DAY I'M GONNA CLEAR EVERYTHING, I'M NOT GONNA PICK A FIGHT, I WILL JUST ASK WHY WERE YOU SO MEAN TO ME. I JUST CAN'T SHARE ANYTHING WITH ANYONE. I FEEL SO HEAVY, ITS DOUBTFUL WHETHER I CAN BEAR ALL THESE. I PRAY TO GOD THAT I MUST BEAR. NO MATTER WHAT. I MUST BEAR BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE ANYONE TO SHARE.
1. Guys don’t actually look after good-looking girls. They prefer neat and presentable girls.
2. Guys hate flirts.
3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.
4. When a guy says he doesn’t understand you, it simply means you’re not thinking the way he is.
5. “Are you doing something?” or “Have you eaten already?” are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.
6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
7. When a guy really likes you, he’ll disregard all your bad characteristics.
8. Guys go crazy over a girl’s smile.
9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl’s attention.
10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.
11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.
12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can’t. And they sure have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking!
13. Guys cry!!!
14. Don’t provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.
15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.
16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.
17. When you touch a guy’s heart, there’s no turning back.
18. Giving a guy a hanging message like “You know what? Uh…never mind!” would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.
19. Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands.
20. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.
21. When a guy makes a prolonged “umm” or makes any excuses when you’re asking him to do you a favor, he’s actually saying that he doesn’t like you and he can’t lay down the card for you.
22. When a girl says “no”, a guy hears it as “try again tomorrow.”
23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.
24. Guys hate nice boy!
25. Guys love their moms.
26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.
27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn’t mean that the guy likes her.
28. You can never understand him unless you listen to him.
29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.
30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.
31. Like Eve, girls are guys’ weaknesses.
32. Guys are very open about themselves.
33. Its good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don’t let him wait that long.
34. No guy is bad when he is courting
35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.
36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they’re not that much pretty.
37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.
38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don’t need to give advice.
39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
40. A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.
41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts.
42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.
43. Guys virtually brag about anything.
44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.
45. Guys think too much.
46. Guys’ fantasies are unlimited.
47. Girls’ height doesn’t really matter to a guy but her weight does!
48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!!
49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl.
50. It’s not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they’ve been together for 3 years or more.
51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.
52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he’s too-good-never-been-busted
, never been in love and hurt, he won’t be matured and grow up.
53. When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.
54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.
55. Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed pussycats with their girlfriends.
56. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he’s sweating. You’ll probably see that he is nervous.
57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.
58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he’s just actually saying, “Please come and listen to me”
59. Guys don’t really have final decisions.
60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.
61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.
62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.
63. Guys believe that there’s no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.
64. Guys like femininity not feebleness.
65. Guys don’t like girls who punch harder than they do.
66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.
67. A guy would waste his time over video games and basketball, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.
68. Guys love girls who can cook or bake.
69. Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!
70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.
71. A guy’s friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage.
72. Don’t be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection.
73. Don’t be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you’ll be surprised.
74. Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys.
75. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.
76. Guys don’t comprehend the statement “Get lost” too well.
77. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.
78. When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.
79. Guys don’t care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.
80. Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them, they’ll realize they’re wrong.
81. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He’s just too stubborn to deal with it.
82. Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.
83. Guys’ weakest point is at the knee.
84. When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.
85. When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things.
86. When a guy looks at you, either he’s amazed of you or he’s criticizing you.
87. When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.
88. If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.
89. If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you’re with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.
90. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.
91. You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!
92. If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.
93. When a guy says he can’t sleep if he doesn’t hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.
94. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.
95. Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.
96. Girls are allowed to touch boys’ things. Not their hair!
97. If a guy says you’re beautiful, that guy likes you.
98. Guys hate girls who overreact.
99. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.
It's very painful, when you don't get what you want no matter how hard you struggle, but life does not end here. People may look down, give you fake hopes and run away from you, this does not mean you're totally useless, every success starts with pain and hardship, just that we don't have a crystal ball to forecast the day that we will obtain success. Life in this world is hard indeed, but the question is, what makes life hard? people around us? environment? perfections? high hopes? or we ourself?
The answer is - WE OUR SELF.....
YES, why should I bother what is the person next to me is doing? why my friends are treating me like this? how am I going to please others? and etc...
this is my life, and its the time to bother for myself....hoping high sometimes, ends up with tears, enjoying all month and last day tears vanishes all the happiness, what a life?
I should cherish myself saying, It's your hard work, feel happy for it unless you didn't work hard...
let the best friend run away from you after realizing that you're useless, but that's the time you're able to realize who is your friend. Always struggling hard to get something, but when u don't get it did anyone come to you and say, don't worry you tried your best may be this is not the time? everyone accused you indirectly by saying why this happened? how can it be like this?
BECAUSE no one understand me better than me myself?
so now its time to appreciate and affiliate myself rather than letting down...
seeing the world with opened mind and bright way....this answers everyday is great, and there is always tomorrow and your life does not end here.
AS WHAT THE KING OF FLUTE, inspired:
it's important to focus on what you do and only on what you do, go all out and do your best for anything that you do, do not think that i must do this for others, do it well for urself without bothering the end result .
this is my life I'm going to follow your steps or bother what you do and what you get. BECAUSE i thought no matter what you will be with me, but it's not true, just one event and 15 minutes proved me what is the true meaning of best friend. It's not the time to worry about it. Let's do assignments and presentations together but not more than that because you know hurting yourself by staying with someone who fakes around with the name of best friend is the most best feeling that's going to kill you.
ITS THE TIME TO BE WITH PEOPLE WHO TEACHES YOU WHAT IS LIFE, NOT SOMEONE THAT MAKES YOU TO HATE YOUR LIFE..........................................................
everything started as a mere game......now its getting damn serious, OMg
...i was angry when i heard it...damn why should I get angry, that's the 1st question but my brain knows what am doing is not right my stupid....oops no, my beautiful heart does not understand.... if this is gonna extend then things gonna get far more difficult, how to invest in sumthing tht u noe u won't get? kasantra u are stupid indeed...
Saturday 6 August 2011
There is a rain in my eyes,
and even the dry dreams got wet (in tears),
There is a rain in my eyes,
my sleep cries in the corners of eyelids,
There is a rain in my eyes,
Tears fall and heart gets hurt
There is a rain in my eyes,
(and) It's weather of separation's clouds,
With black, black, blank nights, I'm getting friends,
Lost in these ways, I have nothing my own,
Every moment, how I bear,
Every moment, to myself, I keep saying,
I have forgotten you,
I've forgotten you,
I've forgotten u,
Then why did your memories
make me cry,
make me cry..
The words written in your memories do I hear,
Passed moments ask why (we) got separated like that, God,
God, this distance (I've) got
God, it's your decision only,
God, it has happened,
that you had written..
For two moments I was attached to you,
Then the path was turned such
(that) I started getting lost from you
Like getting away
was something mine from me..
You only pray for me now,
You only part me from this pain now,
Being yours, when I did not remain yours,
I say this to myself,
I have forgotten you,
I've forgotten you,
I've forgotten u,
Then why did your memories
make me cry,
make me cry..
its so painful to stay with some one who is selfish....
i may list out every single thing that u do which describes how selfish u are.. but im juz bearing with everything...
u gave me time, 20 min to do my work whereas you were doin ur tutorial when we were doing bf assgnment..
everyone was hungry, but when u wanna eat ni the others must do so..
u said i always become a clown who do work for everyone, i rather do than complaining
remember last time when were studying for finals, i shared with u something last minute which i realized as i studied then ni u shared something wht the lecturer said to u when u met her one week ago..so if not u wud nt have shared tht....is that a meaning to best friend?
maybe because of this my results are bad....im stupid innefficient...
i can see that u don't trust my work anymore, when i say anything correctly oso, u deny it and embarrass me...thx for tht..
maybe i just need to bear with all this for sometime, time will pass very fast... hope in future i dun have a husband like this,, i rather divorce him that living in hell everyday:P
i want a friend who will share my sorrow and who is able to share hers with me too, we can laugh togather...
not to juz do assignment and remind my flaws.....
so down yesterday, can't really do well in the mid terms, i thought i was relatively prepared but it didn't work actually. felt so bad ......................................but nothing can be done now. its past, so got to think ma future..
besides all these, yesterday i did enjoy celebrating my hse mates b'day.it was great and awesome........eating cake, decorating, and there was a lot of food..damn i was so full...but the most important thing is that, everyone enjoyed...hehehhehe :)
its tyme to go back to normal. becoz this is what people like. living a life of punishment.....thank you for making me realise who am i..........im nothing.......juz a potato....yes...but can't blame u noe, neither maself. i didnt want to be like this.but sorry, i should nt have invested hope.......good bye my fren:)
went jogging today, had an awesome day. the weather was great, windy not sunny. pretty satisfied as i jogged 2 rounds and walked 3 rounds. saw my lecturer,he was also jogging. saw many students,uncles and aunties.
but the only thing spoils the beauty of the park is the couples who come to romance there. not to say they can't romance there, but they must have decency and respect other people too. they can't show their intimacy to everyone. its disgusting. hope they will realize. so what is the difference between human and animals...........big question.
yesterday me and ma hse mates were studying togather in ma floor. we were studying + chatting, lol laughed a lot till i had a lot of tears in ma eyes and stomach ache. then it was 12.30am sumthing like that. ma radio was singing, then we heard a spooky screaming voice, guess it was a women. it was damn damn scary,i thought oni am the one who heard it, i was keeping quite without realizing that ma hse mates oso heard it. then they were scared, i covered by saying it was the song in the radion, actually it was not frm that. then another hse mate of mine told she could smell sumthing, i told that maybe sumone was cooking, and then i told them i could no longer cover up anything and its betta for us to nt stay up long. then , i decided to go to bed. they went for a yum cha. it was scray experience but very exciting indeed....hehehhe.....hope it won't happen again and evrything will be fine. god bless us. hope God will always protect us........:)
IT WAS INFATUATION, THAT'S WHAT I THOUGHT.......................
started my day with a strong cup of coffee, sent my laundry, called my mom and then i was listening to SRK songs:) today some or rather must study law..............next week got test, omg........so scary. later thinking wat to eat for lunch........maybe my instant noodles bcoz i feel the aunty selling food near west lake not tasty so juz eat maggi...........
