BEARING IS PAINFUL.

CANNOT
CANNOT
CANNOT
I DON'T WANT TO REPEAT THE SAME THING THAT I DID LAST TIME, IT WAS SO EMBARRASSING AND MADE ME GUILTY.
IT'S PEOPLE'S RIGHT , THEY CAN CHOOSE HOW TO BEHAVE AND HOW NOT TO. IT'S FOOLISH OF MYSELF TO WORRY BOUT THAT, IT'S MY OWN PROBLEM TO BRING MY SELF SO CLOSE TO THAT PERSON ASSUMING THAT "SHE IS MY BESTIE". BESTIES WILL STAY WITH YOU NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS AND HOW BAD ARE YOUR TIMES.

APPROXIMATELY, I HAVE 1 1/2 YEAR TO COMPLETE. AFTER THAT, I ASSUME THAT I'M NOT GOING TO MEET THAT PARTICULAR PERSON AND THE LAST DAY I'M GONNA CLEAR EVERYTHING, I'M NOT GONNA PICK A FIGHT, I WILL JUST ASK WHY WERE YOU SO MEAN TO ME. I JUST CAN'T SHARE ANYTHING WITH ANYONE. I FEEL SO HEAVY, ITS DOUBTFUL WHETHER I CAN BEAR ALL THESE. I PRAY TO GOD THAT I MUST BEAR. NO MATTER WHAT.  I MUST BEAR BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE ANYONE TO SHARE.